Travis Barker, who survived a plane crash in 2008 that killed nearly everyone aboard, says he is still healing from the horrifying incident.
Speaking with Men's Health, the Blink-182 drummer admitted he hasn't flown on a plane since the incident, which claimed the lives of the two pilots, assistant Chris Baker and security guard Charles Stil -- and left his most of his body covered in third-degree burns.
The only other crash survivor, Adam "DJ AM" Goldstein, died of an overdose a year later.
Barker recalled, "I was told I wasn’t going to run again because I had so many grafts on my feet, and there was even talk of me never playing the drums again."
The "What's My Age Again?" drummer challenged himself to prove the doctors wrong and grinned, "And now I’m in better shape than I’ve ever been."
While he has overcome his physical wounds, his mental scars are still there, Barker says. The 45-year-old is still seeking treatment for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD.)
"It’s gotten better the further I get away from it," he admitted, but said he was in a "dark" place after the crash.
"I couldn’t walk down the street. If I saw a plane [in the sky], I was determined it was going to crash," the drummer admitted, recalling the vivid flashes of "being in an accident and being burned, trying to grab my friends from a burning plane."
As for how he's helped himself heal, the Grammy nominee says he has "memorials on my legs for everyone that I lost in my plane crash" and has committed himself to flying on a plane again because "I want to make the choice to try and overcome [my fear.]"
Added Barker, "Why should I still be afraid of airplanes?"